Well felt very terrible and wasn't really concentrating yesterday... Several things cropped my mind yesterday... didn't know how to cope yesterday... Well it was right i'm just putting myself too hard... haix... and it's just that i have never faced reality,, the real reality... well i really have to face the actual fact and not be too high of an expectation... have to work really hard right now and will accept whatever i get.... i have worked hard for it and that is what i can get... it is some lessons which we hav to learnt ... as what is said every morning during devotions. yeah ... don't give up yet!!!!!!!