DiLeMMaS: EpIsOdE 4( Season Finale)
Flashback: I had dilemmas to whether i will choose JJC as my choice and whether i should stay as an OGL or not...... my worries had me made the becoming of an OGL apprehensive and it overpowered my thoughts... Criticisms or shocked from even my good friends happenned.. some irritated, felt unbelivable ... and the list of such words can go on... Well, it was just a night and half a day to decide on the rest of my fate.... and i really don't know if i can ever continue.... It really intensified my fear... and my thoughts...

Well, it's the finale and some might say that it's a happy ending... but how is it happy? is staying happy? or is going happy.? Check out this story.. THE FINALE of Dilemmas...

FINALE : 26 jANUARY 2006, 7.40am
" To all J1 OGLs, i repeat, to all J1 OGLs there will be a meeting today at 5pm in the hall, attendance will be compulsory....", student coucillor announced as he read through the series of announcement that have to be made that day.... If i had to write a composition on " the hardest decision that i have to make" i'll write this one... Well if not for all the dilemmas... why would this decision of becoming an OGL be so difficult? Oh well...

It was really dificult difficult decision to make...i really don't know what to choose... I heard from dources that yesterday's shadows ended about 7++pm.. i was wondering would OGLs be longer or shorter... Longer as there's a lot of people to address, shorter as it would ..??? no idea...which i guess would be long... i heard from other sources that it will end at 8pm.. Apprehension really overcomed me and succumbed to my feelings... I felt like dropping out.. but not before i give it a shot...

I know i heard of people telling me to see if i have the passion for it... i know i have the answer but i still don't know... Ironic..

Well, as the clock struck 5pm.. it was time for me to see and make my decision... hope it is finalised..

Guess what was my choice......

I was really soaked into the atmosphere as if still at camp... it was really fun... i guess i'll still stick to OGL for the time being haha:D i guess it is a wise one =)

DiLeMMaS: EpIsOdE 3
Hey.. i'm starting my own episodes of my dilemmas and me.... Well episode 1 was "Interviews/ Dilemmas" and episode 2 was " Question:?? " and now i'll start on episode three...

Well.. over the past one two days or so... i'm really considering of whether i should be OGL.... Some might be really annoyed to hear that i might want to withdraw form being OGL.. It's not that I don't like to be OGL, i kinda liked it... but i'm really having big question marks above my head...i really need advise from past yr's OGLs and JJcians who re-enter and are not OGL and friends to help me answer...

Well 1st question : Would you be lagging behind ,if you were an OGLfor lessons....?

2nd question : Am i really, really staying in JJC..?

3rd question: Am i able to cope with such a commitment that is needed..?

With these main questions and other linking questions... i really don'tnow what should i expect... tomorrow is OGL meeting.. should i go??? Haiz.... :(

Question : ??
Hey.. now with the results of the OGLs for Orientation Camp 02, everything has been finalised.... Well, never did i expect i had actually got into becoming an OGL... i guess is because (quote from the interviwer teacher), " Your testimonial is one of the ones which tops the list of applicants..." Well that's what i think it is because which makes me up the list and probably also because of the interview...

Well but the main thing is, " I don't know if i am really staying in JJ.."

It's really a very hard decision to make... Well on one hand.. JJ has really enriched me and gave me a different perception of their school.. and i still thought it wasn't really a very very good school.... but ever since admin days to camp and now to lessons... JJ is realli a very very good school since i've made a lot of good friends ... So i should really consider making JJC as one of my choices to JC

However, being a person that is kinda set... i had other intentions in mind... as in i have my dream JCs ( SAJC as top priority and ACJC as one of them) Most preferbly SAJC becoz i kinda like their culture, one which suits me, bith nerdy and high spirited.. well, it;s a tough decision i have to make.. bt on the other hand i still have to see my Os which is coming out in one to two weeks time... Oh Well...let's see.. =) / =(

Interview/Dilemmas
Interview is very VERY nerve-wrecking, especially with ur intervewers as the president of Student Council and the teacher in charge of student council... Well i was trying out to be an OGL (Orientation Group Leader) for the orientation camp 02 for the second intake, well i reallyt have my doubts.. should I or should i not...

Well i have been through stages of planning and executing the camp in secondary school and yes i agree that it's really a big difference but i'm sure the techniques are still the same rite..??? Well my interview was in groups of 5...

First question ," So what have your parents think about the school?"

Everyone was giving positive feedback.. but i said with straightfowardness and my frank attitude, " Well they think it's a good school but it's too far for me.."

" So where do you stay?"

" Queenstown..."

Then a soft whisper came from the councillor..." humph... n___(name of another councillor) stays at woodlands..."

I was rather irritated and pissed with the comment.. So what??!!?? i think it's far so it's far.. your problem??? A strike off from me...

continuing... they said " from the look of ur testimonial, it seems to be the top in the list " .. a moment of silent happiness in me...

" so if you were asked to dance in front of 300 people would you dare ? ", " if you were asked to be a clown in front of these 300 people would you mind...? "

Well the only answer which was similar for both " I wouldn't mind..i have done it before... and i have confidence in doing it... as long as the campers are happy... enjoying themselves and understand the spirit ... i'll be willing to do it.."

next question" If you had to work with this guy which u hate so much... what would you do?"

erm i was kinda stumped..," i will still worked with him... discuss and come to a compromise, a win win situation..."

but there was more ironic and out-of-the-world questions... " er... what is the colour of JJ water???" , " would you mind working even on saturdays and sundays in school, staying overnite even.." and i went ," er..." when i heard them askin..

One of the questions , being asked to an interviewe was also posted to us... ," do u have any talents? " .. so as he coulnted to fivr.. i just hurried to say that i learned the piano and blah blah blah....

Guess what... to test us and see if we were capable and responsible " OGLs" ... there was a piece of bottle wrapper placed under one of our interviewees chair...OMG when i enter i couldn't even see the wrapper and u ex[pect me to pick it up!!??!! OMGs .. Oh well .. it's over... just wait for results...

But as i left... i said " Please let other good ones go first before choosin me..." you get the idea, i didn't really wanted to be inside... Haiz...

Well to all OG 19 peeps , sorry i cant' go to family outing becoz of the things happening at home... Well hope that we can still meet some other time...

To Qtss peeps: I'm going back to QTSS finally tomorrow and most probably this friday too after so many things has happened this past week...

To every peep: So sorry that i had not had time to interact with ur... well after today i'm ok... i'll continue to stay strong!!! and i'll continue to be happy... =) SmileZ =)

人生难免谁无死。。。
Well some of you might be wondering :
1) why haven't i been blogging for the past one week...
2) Why do i have such a title?
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Well i guess the reason is clear... someone close to me has left me eternally and perpetually... Well i know that peepes would say " don't take it too hard.." ," well , this is part and parcel of life, so try and get used to it..." or even "节哀顺便”( if it's writtne like that) Oh Well thanks to all peeps who have send their regards, really really appreciate it over this past week... =)
It started out last monday where i got a call on my way back to QTSS, " Hey, she has been admitted into the ICU, you'd better come downto see her now... " i had no choice but just to " pang seh" my peeps for this time.... i really hope that they understand... Thanks peeps =) As i rushed there, i asked what had happened to her..and her condition got worse... Well i went back to change and went back to the hospital... As i returned... i heard that she had to go for an Op. How sad and depressed i become as her chances were 50/50 with high risk.... being so old she still has to go for the Op. to check for what has happened...i really hoped that she was fine and nothing had happened to her... Looking at her going thru all that pain really hurts me... no one wants to see one hurt... at least now all of my family and i knew the actual situation... She did not ____ from the Op. but the doc says .." we managed to find out what happened to her, but it could not be helped... she would still have another few more days to spend with her and hopefully she could respond to you..." Well that was some hard-and -unexpectable fact that was delivered to all of us... So then we would drop by at the hospital and hope to see her before she goes on her eternal journey... Well true enough.. she left all of us on Wednesday... and i received it in Physics Tutorial... well though hard to believe, but i still controlled my emotions ...So that's why i had to attend her wake, urgent and important family matter, and help out with it and attend prayers everyday... Well it is hard to accept but i know i'll have to get over he fact.. she'll still lie in my heart and all i can say she was a very good lady...
Well courteage is later.... so have to get ready for it... but for now i know that i won't be celebrating Chinese New Year after so mny things has happened at home... Oh well, i guess it's a miss this year... but i understand and i don't blame and lament... it's ok
Well, see you soon =)

A Day Of the Arts
Haha... you can't really imagine today man..... it's really a day which i get to TOTALLY experience the Arts... =) It was kinda fun for me coz i'm really an arts person...
First thing in the morning at about 9.30 am.... i went back to school with Pei Ying to go for CO (Chinese Orchestra)... I heard they were going to perform pieces for the upcoming Chinese New Year so they would then have to start practice now... Er... i was quite a noobie in chinese orchestra there coz i don't really know how to play, for the matter of fact, ANY of the instruments there except maybe the "er-hu" once from my sec. school friends...but neverthe less still a noob! haha =) Well as i stepped in, i realised i was the only one that doesn't know how to play any of the instruments that they have on offer.... well then i just decided to try out the Cello coz pei ying was playing it so then i could learn from her.... well still it was hard, then i tried the bass it was also kinda hard. However, one thing that i realise is that i guess most of the instruments in the CO is kinda Bad!!! especially the strings instrument coz the cello and the bass was very VERY hard to tune coz of the knob... u can't imagine the amount of force that i have exerted onto it, it was beyond hope... haha :D
Later in the afternoon about three plus i went for piano lessons, it was then the usual routine to practise my scales and exam pieces, and i have realised that now in grade 5 everything is precise and into timing, expression, articulation and phrasing.. wow.. that's a lot but still i have to hit the basics first... haha. My teacher also mentioned about the Musician's platform., another recital, ..... i think i shall sign up again then it's the fourth time!!! but i hope peeps from OG 19 and 4A 05' could come down to support me!!! Details will be let out later but temporary it's at 5pm to 6.30pm at millenia walk... date cannot remember...i'll try to play modern songs :D
Later in the night, i went to RV's Golden Jubillee concert ( Don't ask me how i got there) . I was aroused and amazed by their performances... each and everyone of their performance made my jaw drop.... it was very stunning. The dancers were very graceful and flexible and it was contemporary and modern... The choir though one of the pieces is kinda abstract but it was still good, the band and CO was really amazing as they played their pieces as if it was form a real band or orchestra and their instruments are far more better than our school...... The dramas were also quite nice... It was simply breathtaking... hahaha :D

If you read whatever is below, don't ask me why like that, it's an inner feeling ...indescriable.... please be understanding Thank you =)

What's goin on...
Please read on to the end... OG 19
Well these few days people aren't really talking that much either why? Though i mentioned before that we OG 19are really a strong fostered bond that it's simply invincible to be penetrated to be broken... Well am i wrong??? I'm guessing it must be the Civics Classes fault for seperating us, but we still get to meet each other in lectures...i really don't know..
i'M having apprehension that some day, we might just walk past each other thinking we're just mere acquaintances or even strangers..??? Though it may not be true, but who knows? I'm just really hoping that we could still be united...Well a lot of us have already joined some one in one way or another, but though it's the case, they still remembered us members coz the memories that they had with us OG19 has simply etched deeply into each and everyone of our hearts , the feelings, emotions and true love care and concern for each and everyone of us will be inseperable in our hearts.... though u might think it's plain flowery language ... but from me i'm sincere and true of what i've said and really like this OG that i had. Though i might not be with them for like one and a half days and that's when the best part comes, but i will still remember each and every memory that has been made which made me feel and want to remember it forever, without forgetting it... This cannot be my short term memory, but a perpetually-moving thing in my mind. Though each step, event, move and word from each of us might be great to us or even be quite insignificant, all these were intertwined together to patch a beautiful story that will be installed in us and never be erased i guess.... I'm really grateful that i have met a very good,no, WONDERFUL (IN CAPS) , bunch of friends which were always by my side and show the true and forthright meaning of friendship, care, concern and a spirit that it's simply invincible and too strong to overcome and to describe... Though some of us may be joining others, it's good to make new friends... We'll be happy too... but i hope each and every OG 19 member will still stick together and still be united , still hang out together the 30 over of us and show them that OG 19 the BEST OG IN JJC!!! and we'll stomp them like a gingerbread man and never let them stomp us back!!! OG 19 FoEeVA!!! =) Always be optimistic and happy =)

JJC
Here i am again.. Well it is sure very tiring for me to sure lead a JC life having to attend so many lectures at one go today... Imagine one after the another sitting there copying notes, listening... That's no wonder why some of us were there sleeping... HaHAHha :D i think we know =) But it sure was tiring... but what's to do, Haiz just have to accept life and see what will happen for the next 6 weeks before results are out.. Oh well, for now, it's still having lectures, tutorials soon and er... more lessons... OH GOSH!!!

JJC CCA Open House
Well after lecture today we got to go for CCA Open house to choose a CCA of our choice... Oh well, it's yet another round of choices...
I got to be frank, i wish to join a performing arts CCA coz i believe that's what i always wanted and i really Arts but not studying them...
Well there were many choices on offer, Each CCA bugging and harassing us to join theirs coz of this that this that and blah blah blah ... i guess you'll know the rest what you are able to expect..... i signed up for Chinese Orchestra and Choir coz one of them i have done it before, the latter one, well the other former is a whole new experience to discover and feel for myself, well i'm at a dilemma, choosing one out of the two... WHICH ONE???
Well for choir after that we had to go throgh a round of auditions and no boubt i made it in i guess, auditions were i guess the same, but kinda different... Well back to thinking and pondering what's good for me, a new experience or another two more years of that.. well i'' guess someday....

First Day of Lecture...
Hey...it's back to school again and now it's the second week of school... How time really flies.... And as we know our civics classes... i guess we'll be somehow disbanded really soon... but i know the spirit of OG 19 will always be within us and we'll still stick together like super glue coz the camaraderie that was fostered among us is very strong and i know we'll not forget our group =)
Well, lecture starts today ... this means an hour in the lecture theatre hearing the lecture giving mass lectures.... Oh well, get to believe it!!! =) Well my subject combi. allowed me to attend one lecture today and it's the last one... it was kinda boring to wait for so long.. but i did play some basketball and had fun...Later we then visited the Cafe in JJC.. Well tea is not that bad or good.. soup was still ok.. at least there was a place to slack before that... Well it was kinda boring if you stayed in a place for a very long time... so a few of us crashed Chem lecture... at least it was still kinda fun... but some slept... haha :D
Later we queued to get notes.... Wow... you should have seen the queue... it was really really long !!! It's like the length of 1 1/3 of a standing broad jump mat...and it was long...
Later it was maths lecture... luckily they have notes for us..Phew.. :D but it was kinda something new but luckily i was still kinda understand the thing haha =) But it was also very long and kinda boring.. HaHA :D

Sec One Orientation Camp:QTSS
It's kinda fun seeing the kids in QTSS, but it's really a hard time taking the kids around especially if they are naughty.. haha.. reminds me of my instructor days:D
But today i carry another mission and that is to help my CCA Choir to gain as many people to the CCA. And thus, i had to help them sing impromptu and also conduct them... YEAH!!! =) It was fun anyway:D oh yes... i'd even played bombing game wif the "NEWBIES" haha.. quite fun though =) Also judging them for Saturday Matinee was fun =)

Orientation Camp: Jurong Junior College
You must be thinking or (as what the people in JJC would say) have bubbles /question marks all above your head...how can i blog when i'm in camp??? HaHAz... I was early released by the teacher so that i can see a doctor ...Is it good??? it's up to you to decide.... if i say... 20% good, 80% not good... :D
Good
i can go help out in CCA OPEN HOUSE during orientation camp for choir ....
Bad
Haiz... have to miss so many of the dances for mass dance.... so many games cannot play, cannot hang out with OG during camp, CANNOT GO JJ NITE!!! SHITZ!!! :@ haiz but worst of all i think is still that i miss out so much of the time i spent with my OG... I can't then really interact( not really) but not very very very very close...but i can still make up and that's my goal..HaHAH! =) But honestly, i really have a good bunch of mates and peeps that are so caring and good i like them... of course i won't forget QTSS too coz they are good too! =)
Camp
Well, i can't say much about the camp but only day one coz i only went for day one and part of day two...
Well, of coz we started out by cheering and cheering all the way ... but then we had ice-breaker games but finding shortest ___, smallest ___ ,longest ___ etc. Well quite fun though...
Later it was MASSS DANCE!! haha:D it was really fun again as we danced with our girl partners, being noops dancing about ... =)
Then, we played the actual atory where we found clues and stuff for our story...haha it was a funny one and i kinda liked it =)
Later, it was shower, wow at least it was better than my last orientation where many guys squeezed into one cubicle to shower...haha =) then it was OG time... we played double whacko and ate dinner.. it was really fun =)
Later, it was nite game, one of the best!!! It was really good completing tasks, climbing the ladder, completing the board, rolling the dice.. haha =) but i had to have a leg cramp .SHUCKS!!
Then it was sing song session. it was really touching by wad mr. leow said which really teared me...it was really touching...
After that it was supper and then we slept...
Day 2 started with some exercise and then breakfast.. then MASS DANCE!!!
BUT I HAD TO INJURE!!! SHUCKS! oh well...

First day of the New School Year.........

Oh gosh... it is finally the start of the new school year.... should i be happy or should i be sad.... hmm.... i don't know...haha:D Well, stepping into a new BIG FOREIGN land is another obstacle that i have to cross( and that's why there's orientaion)...Imagine yourself a person stepping to a Giant's land ... or as my case a giant stepping into a King Kong sized land... haha:D Well(again), the day started when we have to meet in school by 7.00am!!! OH GOSH! Of course i meet my frens from QTSS, at least there is support from others in a new foreign land... we had to proceed to the hall later... Luckily, Wai Ip was in the same family as me.. but not the same group... it was kinda freaky again.... having to think of new skills to make friends again...but i guess i'll accomplish it... HAha:D Well, after meeting in the hall , we proceeded to the OLD parade square for morning assembly... then we had our events.... How boring can it get when you have first a chem teacher talking about SPA for sooooooo...... long and a chinese teacher also talking sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.... long in PERFECT CHINESE...??!!?? However, the tables do turn, we had our break and i got to make new friends ... and more later on ... Later, we had then played hunter fire and earthquake = to disaster forest... and later MASS DANCE... It was quite fun even if it was with a girl partner... then how the day ended with cheers... many of them ...ah.... well (to be continued) :D

Happy New Year !!!
Happy New Year... May all your dreams come true... =)